Filters… or where are you listening from?

Where does the truth I say come from? Stream of consciousness.

I write the largest chunks of surprising truths that way. Something triggers it, and there it comes. Quick, let me get to the computer!

I read Kathryn’s comment on the Worry article, and something clicked. Continue reading “Filters… or where are you listening from?”

That sinking feeling in your stomach. Is it real?

That sinking feeling… the feeling that you don’t measure up. The feeling of impending doom. Of being found out… The fear of death…

I just read an article in the New York Times, and ended up having that sinking feeling in my stomach.

I don’t often have it myself, that sinking feeling in my stomach. but I experience it from students on the calls, so I decided to investigate. Continue reading “That sinking feeling in your stomach. Is it real?”

Why do you choose the shotgun method that doesn’t work

Why do you choose the shotgun method that doesn’t work, while you know that the process method works?

I am reading this guy’s book. I say “this guy” because I don’t want you to read it. I want you to read my blog…

In a lot of ways he and I teach the same things, even though we use different words. He uses words from psychology and woowoo science… I use words like Amish Horse Training Method, Memes, Marker Feelings.

He is a money/marketing man. His vibration is 200, his accurate vocabulary is 600.

He is proof that you don’t have to have a very high vibration to be able to look from high enough so you see enough to make millions and even teach others to make millions. Continue reading “Why do you choose the shotgun method that doesn’t work”

Updated: Soul Correction: Fearless

soul correction fearlessFear is an issue. It’s universal. You have it, I have it. You have to have it. It is the 200,000 year old hardware… where your life was lived out in an environment where everything was a threat to your survival.

Today’s fears are the same, except today the threats to your survival are missing… and yet, the fears continue.

Your path to the next level of evolution, Human Being, is the beingness of fearless… where you consider fear a necessary evil, and you take it with you wherever you go, big and small, safe or dangerous, like you would take a child with you who needs your support.
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You asked for your vibrational reading. You don’t agree…

You asked for your vibrational reading. You got it. You don’t agree… Here is a public answer

I measured someone’s vibration, re-measured 3 times. It was consistently 100.

We emailed back and forth, this is the last email that came, this morning:

Hello Sophie,
My last message to you was a kind of joke, I must apologize and thank you for your reply. The reason for my writing is to let you know for the final time that you are wrong. My vibration is somewhere around 350, not 100.

Your ‘measurement’ threw me off and brought me down! I was left to ponder and bounce this around my head for too long, (nearly 2 days) before it was finally undeniable that it was not the truth. I am now just left to wonder how often you make such mistakes. People that come to you for help may be vulnerable and I urge you to take caution. I believe that you think you are 100% (maybe just 99%) correct so I will not go into the $ side of this.

The main purpose of this email is to simply urge you to please go and check yourself. Healers are sometimes among the 1st to need healing. I do not personally want anything from you, or expect that you do, this is simply a plea.

Be well,

Thank you, you taught me a big lesson.
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I am glad to share this email with everyone, and answer it publicly. This article is to clarify and explain what is the issue between the email writer and myself… And potentially between what you ask for and what you get.

This article may leave you disturbed, confused. Just hang in there.

Let’s go deep first… below the water level of the iceberg, OK? Language…

First off: my muscletest answers the question I ask. You may have asked a different question, meant a different question, had a different question in mind, but I will take it you asked the same question I will ask ‘Source’ in the muscletest, and therein lies the problem.

Language is both a tool of communication and a tool of deception. Intentional or unintentional

The way we speak it, the listener can only assume that they know what you said. In classes it takes me several minutes to succeed in making the speaker re-word what they said so it is clear and has only on meaning.

You don’t know what you say doesn’t mean anything. You think you are communicating.

And you don’t know what you hear doesn’t mean anything… you think you heard what you think you heard.

The language is a relational associative tool, everything is connected to everything in it… and that is both its strength and its pitfall. 1

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Reality, collective hunch at best… but is that true through and through? What does language have to do with it?

In the Playground we learn and practice a kind of speaking that reduces every utterance to what’s real, what is not associative, not relational, not meaning, not interpretation, not concept, not generality, but real.

Because none of those (concept, generalities, etc.) can be real. If everyone has a different meaning for those, they are not real… real is the same for everyone. Even a Martian (imaginary alien) unfamiliar with our culture, could say the same thing. If you need the Martian to know the cultural meaning of things, it is not real.

Now, what does this have to do with the woman who asked for her vibrational reading and is now suggesting that I have my head examined? (I am exaggerating, this is not what she said… sorry Martian… lol.)

People talk how they talk, and if they actually mean to communicate, they have a defined meaning, a definition of the words they use. Many people like to fish in the muddy waters, and they create the muddy waters with their words… beware.

The imaginary number of vibration is one of these made up ‘distinctions’ that can cause a lot of grief, because it can be used in so many different ways.

Obviously, I am one to blame. I have popularized the word ‘vibration’ but I mean something other than what most people mean.

What most people mean is aliveness, density, energy, mood. But those are derivative of some internal ‘thing’ that I measure.

There are people that say: exercise, and your vibration will jump up. No, your vibration will not respond to exercise, maybe your mood, or your physical energy, or mental clarity, but not your vibration.

There are people that say: anger is low vibration… suppress it. Replace it with love. Or upgrade your emotions by saying more positive things, and your vibration will go up with it.

But that ‘theory’ also considers your vibration as malleable as your temperature…

The vibration that I measure is not changing, it is not like the weather, it is steady.

My vibration doesn’t go down when I am angry, even when I get temporarily depressed, like yesterday.

Your vibration doesn’t go higher when you have a mystical experience. When you feel spiritual. When you feel loving. When you just want to hug everybody.

Because the vibration I measure is a more complex phenomenon: it looks at you in relationship to All-of-it, to possibility, to Expanding Human Being, to the direction of evolution of humans.

The different aspects of a human, of course, know which way they are supposed to grow if they are to keep up with the law of evolution.

What is the current level of humanity on the vibrational scale?

The current level of human evolution 2 is that humans are

  1. risk averse
  2. desires to be lead
  3. will only do something if must
  4. makes all decisions based on first impression and following the herd.

Not that far from the animal kingdom.

These are hard-wired behaviors, like it is hard wired in a fish to live in the water. Yet, some fish climbed out of water eons ago, and practiced living there, until a new species was born that can live on land.

It’s OK to remain a fish, but you need to know that to remain on the level of the stone age man is not your natural state, your natural state, what is in harmony with all-of-it and the inner urge to evolve, is to become a human being.

Most humans will choose to not evolve. To not use brain plasticity, different actions, to get on the path of evolving themselves and the species.

What makes you choose to evolve?

It is a matter of your

  1. level of consciousness, awareness,
  2. your level of seeing reality accurately, and you how you handle fear, thought, and risk…
  3. who and what is calling the shot in your one-person universe.

All these three deserve an article by themselves, I, instead, have workshops, ongoing workshops for them… because, after all, this is behavioral, even your consciousness is behavioral. Unless you look, you won’t see. Unless you stop to think, you’ll always end up with your prejudice. Talking to your prejudiced mind will not make much of a difference. 3

The Playground deals, almost exclusively, with how you see reality accurately.

It is not a very comfortable program, in that most of what you know never happened, not true, and you have lived your life based on that knowledge. Not pleasant to look at your life and see that it’s the result of delusion, fuzzy thinking, mistakes and prejudices. It isn’t, trust me.

But the rewards are tremendous. Miraculous, if you ask me.

People ask me how I raise my own vibration from 35 to 180, and I can tell you, it was 90% in the Playground that I did it. I had nearly everything I know turn out to be not so… grrrr… but once I saw it, it was gone. For good.

What do the remedies do with regards to evolution?

The remedies help with fear and taking steps that will take you out of the water. They also help you to have the courage to look around and not be fixated on what tries to hold your attention: mostly bad stuff.

In the Itch experiment and what will come out of it, an actual course, we’ll take back our power to call the shot, instead of leaving it to happenstance, circumstance, other people, prejudice, fear, resistance, anger, and other stuff like that.

The woman who I mention in the beginning of this article, has a different interpretation of vibration, and never considered that we are not talking about the same thing.

She feels at peace gardening, and such, and keeps herself at this calm by meditating, and such. (I actually don’t know what she does, though the gardening is her words)

The inner tension is barely noticeable, because her soul has given up. I feel your inner tension stronger than you do, maybe because it is my curse to feel it so strongly. I have had clients that I felt they are not breathing, and they said ‘I am breathing’ but when I checked, they breathed with only 10% of their lung capacity… the chest and the belly didn’t move at all.

I felt that they weren’t breathing, they weren’t.

So, with this woman, I feel the inner tension between soul and the rest, she probably doesn’t, at least that is what she says.

Playing possum, retreating from life, doing peaceful things, is low vibration on my vibrational scale. It is not a life suitable to a human being… it is settling for less, following, maybe years, the inner calling to avoid taking risks, avoid being found out, avoid being alive.

Some of my students take frequent breaks to go into that ‘barely breathing’ mode… but they come back, and risk again.

Who am I to tell you what to do? I root for you, I see the potential in you, I feel your inner desire and inner tension… but ultimately you decide who you are going to be.

My job is to accept it. I may not like it, I may weep, I may get angry, but I accept it. And don’t ask you to live by any standards other than your own.

I allow it. Let it be. Make room for it. However it is against what I think is right, what I think should be, what I think you should do… I allow it.

In my experience, that is the hardest thing to do for the unevolved human. Pretending that you do: hey, that’s easy. But to allow, energetically, emotionally, in every way… that is hard.

And, surprise, once you allow anything, it allows you to be. Allows you to look. Allows you to think intelligently. And maybe, maybe, answer something intelligent, that truly connects to another person, and helps them through the barrier they are experiencing. Or not.

And your (my) job is, to allow that, as well.

That is why I decided to call myself the Edison of Transformation: Edison did not resist any of the results his failing experiments showed. Instead, he stayed calm, collected, (maybe after carryiong on a bit? lol!) and then regaining his inner balance, looked what is useful in what happened.

Hey, I can’t think of a better person to model myself after.

PS: what do you think of Rob Brezsny’s horoscope? Can you see the connection?

I enjoy getting spam emails with outrageous declarations that are at odds with common sense. ‘Eating salads makes you sick’ is one of my favorites, along with ‘Water is worse for you than vodka’ and ‘Smoking is healthier than exercising.’ Why do I love reading these laughable claims? Well, they remind me that every day I am barraged by nonsense and delusion from the news media, the Internet, politicians, celebrities, and a host of fanatics. ‘Smoking is healthier than exercising’ is just a more extreme and obvious lie than many others that are better disguised. The moral of the story for you in the coming week: Be alert for exaggerations that clue you in to what’s going on discreetly below the surface. Watch carefully for glitches in the Matrix.

I am personally offended… How can they do this to me?

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I am personally offended… How can they do it to me? How dare it rain on my wedding day? How dare my husband lie to me? How dare my son pee in his bed?

What drives this thought process? Is it personal pride? Wrongful Pride? Ego? Self-importance? What is it?

If Ego is not what we were told it was, then where does “personally offended” come from?

I am sitting at my computer. It’s a beautiful day, Saturday. Suddenly a I hear a car horn urging someone to do something. Then again.

I feel the corners of my mouth curve down: I am personally offended. They are honking and it bothers me. They don’t behave the way they should: shut the f… up. Respect my peace and quiet.

Yesterday a plumber did some work in the downstairs apartment. He didn’t air out the pipes and it broke the my water filter when the air and water came rushing out in bursts instead of steadily flowing water, the way it SHOULD BE.

Personally offended.
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How to find your direction?

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Summary: One of the most frequent questions people ask or think is: what is my soul’s purpose? what am I supposed to do with my life? How to live on purpose to get fulfillment, and a sense of life well lived? This article contributes the purpose part…

If you want to do this exercise correctly, you need a distance to see the forest for the trees. With distance comes “Witness” and you begin to see, without the constant chatter of the Mind, that tries to tell you what you should see to look good, to be good, to be socially acceptable, to conform to your own expectations of what’s good… all misleading. Your job is to see what is so, not what should be so.

With distance you see even the time-line. Tendencies, trends, inclinations. You can see what was important and what wasn’t. 1
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Are you sure you are feeling THAT? How many emotions can you identify in yourself?

All Decisions Are Emotional. Later You Justify Them With Your Mind. Want to know what emotion blocks your breathing?

There is nothing new in that for many of you, but for those of you that didn’t know about it: let me explain.

Emotions is a guidance system that is much more ancient than the mind. You feel stuff way before the mind gets alert that something is going on. The mind is always late to every party. The mind asks the question: “What happened?” because it doesn’t know.

There is a saying: some people make things happen, others watch things happen, and yet more people ask: what the heck happened?

Now, up till here, this is pretty commonplace for a lot of people.

What I am going to say now is new, even I didn’t know until this past Saturday. It is so new, and it is so shocking, to me, that I have been telling it to everyone who is willing to listen.
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