This may be the most important article for you to read… Don’t complain that I didn’t warn you!
One of the things mainstream (all the gurus) get wrong is this: they consider you a constant in opportunities. Constant as in fixed… As if you were the same when you are afraid, and when you are confident…
I had a unique glimpse behind the curtain today. I was painted a behind the scenes picture of someone I thought I knew.
On the front, in public, the person is quiet, collected, decent.
Her son reports that
she tells everyone in the family who to befriend and who to avoid
she tells everyone in the family what they are allowed to talk about and what they should be mum about.
she takes tranquilizers and washes them off with alcoholic drinks.
Wow. I never expected to see the ugly side of this person. Of course as an empath I felt her “heart” full of hate, full of pretense, but that is not a fact… and the above are facts.
I just made a discovery while I was pulling the attachments from a woman who had it really bad. (Her starting vibration was 70, and her ending vibration was 170. That is amazing. Just pulling attachments and cords).
Yesterday I wrote about the “nut” that unless you break it and see what’s in it, your life will be lived out in the misery of duality. There is help available, here, because you need someone who is ruthlessly compassionate.
Of course you want someone who’ll console you, who’ll coddle you, but if you really want to get to the other side of it, and start the process of becoming real, you need someone who doesn’t buy into your fantasy about yourself, that even you know it’s a fantasy.
I, honestly, don’t expect any of you to be ready. It’s not a rate thing, I could offer it for free, and you wouldn’t be interested enough to come.
The Playground was a long version of this process, and a total of three-four people attended regularly. Of course there I didn’t tell people what was required of them… maybe I didn’t really know… I only realized the significance after 2-3 months passed.
Here is an Osho talk, talking about this exact topic. Enjoy.
Self-knowledge is the most difficult thing – not because it is difficult, but because you are scared to know about yourself. A deep fear exists. Everybody is trying to escape, escape from himself. This fear has to be understood. And if this fear exists, whatsoever you do will not be of much help. You may think that you want to know yourself, but if this unconscious fear is there you will continuously avoid, you will continuously try to hide, deceive. On the one hand you will try to know yourself, and on the other hand you will create all sorts of hindrances so that you cannot know.
After all I loved that program… so why not continue indefinitely.
Two reasons: 1. There were only four participants. But that is not enough reason. 2. The Playground is a knowing yourself program, but knowing yourself needs to be done by you, not by me. People kept coming, but they didn’t continue the work of getting to know themselves at home, in their own time… So all that “self-knowledge” work I did with them was wasted.
Why? Because stronger forces won… You’ll see in this amazing talk, 40 years ago by Osho.
What’s wrong with my Wife? 29 August 1974 am in Buddha Hall THE NINTH SAYING
JESUS SAID: THE MOTE THAT IS IN THY BROTHER’S EYE THOU SEEST, BUT THE BEAM THAT IS IN THINE EYE THOU SEEST NOT. WHEN THOU CASTEST THE BEAM OUT OF THINE EYE, THEN THOU WILT SEE CLEARLY TO CAST THE MOTE OUT OF THY BROTHER’S EYE.
Self-knowledge is the most difficult thing – not because it is difficult, but because you are scared to know about yourself.
Yesterday, in the Playground session, we spoke about the fear of death.
“They” say all fear is fear of death. I am not afraid of death. I have faced death several times. Some of the times it was because I was ill. Many of the times I did it to meet death, to make friends with death. And even more often I faced death to get beyond it. To get where only through death you can get. Continue reading “Fear of death”
Update: When we are on a lower level of consciousness, we think it is all about us. What we do, what other people say, our results… everything. So our “self” is always in danger of falling off its pedestal, and we feel that with it we die.
The reason: we can’t tell, we don’t even think, that we and our actions are not the same. We can’t see that we do something, and the results of those actions don’t change who we are… there is no real connection. The results are the results, you are you, no connection. Continue reading “Judgment: What is judgment? what is it really? The whole picture…”
As I said in my last article, life is drab, drudgery, boring, and meaningless… unless you blow magic dust over it.
Here are a few examples that illustrate the principle of magic:
I am using pictures with a well-known story to illustrate the point…
A few years ago I asked my little brother to look at some pictures I was putting on a gallery. His feedback to me was… “What?! just pictures!?!?!?”
That really made me think. An ordinary person, like my brother, without a context, without a story only sees the drab, the mundane, the boring, the ordinary. Continue reading “More on magic”
The first Osho book I have ever read, was Maturity. I started to read it in the store, and fell in love with it.
It echoed one of my favorite Landmark Education courses, the Wisdom Course.
In that course, maturity was a state (they call it possibility, just a Landmark Education word!): where you were using adult capacities to live your life.
This may be the most important article for you to read… Don’t complain that I didn’t warn you!
Judgment
As I said in my last article, life is drab, drudgery, boring, and meaningless… 
