It is the week of Thanksgiving… Why can’t you feel gratitude? Why your thanksgiving is hollow?

This morning I received an email from a young man who paid me to measure his starting point measurements.

He could be speaking for you.

I need to take better care to my physical body. Like you said, drinking more water is the first step.

I don’t take care of my body, and I can’t understand why.

I feel like I’m missing gratitude. I hate to say it but I don’t feel grateful, and I don’t understand why.

Gratitude probably will come up to everyone, at least in the United States, where this week is Thanksgiving week… and you are supposed to be grateful. Or pretend that you are.

The more lavish your Thanksgiving, the more money you spend, the more food on the table, the more you do it to cover up that you are pretending. And pretense is the killer of the spirit.

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How do I tame my fear of the unknown, the difficult?

How do I tame my fear of the unknown, the difficult, the tasks I need to do that I am ill-suited to do?

One day I’ll have an editor. Or maybe a brilliant assistant. Someone who is good at things I am lousy at.

I have major holes in my brain. It started with my brain development in the womb. I am on the autistic spectrum, an experiment of sorts. Then I had my two massive brain injuries… One in 1969 and one in 1998.

So I was never good at putting things to order. Time order… what needs to get done first and what needs to get done next. Even just thinking about that, the brain cells that would do that work start to hurt. So maybe I should exercise them… hm… that is an idea. Continue reading “How do I tame my fear of the unknown, the difficult?”