Not as successful as you would like to be?

Not as successful as you would like to be?

needyWhat prevents you from growing, what prevents you from becoming all you can become?

Ambition is what makes people grow, ambition is what makes people accomplish things that are not easy.

But ambition is kept in check… as I said above, by desire that everybody says is good for you… Bah humbug.

Let’s see what the words actually mean before we continue.

Ambition is directing your motive power, your inner motive power towards the accomplishment of something: learning, building, mastering. In my view, the beingness view: ambition is the willingness to go/do for what you want. Continue reading “Not as successful as you would like to be?”

The story behind the story… behind the story…

The story behind the story… behind the story…

The story behind the story, behind the story, behind the story…

The invisible parts of the story is also a story.

A story can be just the telling of what happened and all the thoughts, emotions, interpretions the teller of the story added.

The tricky thing is to see all the stories… and then see what actually happened in reality separate from what you made up about it.

In digging for the itch, the need that wasn’t provided in an incident, that was deliberately taken away, and now running our lives, we experienced this layeredness of the story…

Everybody’s, including my own. Continue reading “The story behind the story… behind the story…”

It’s normal to be miserable: the itch to scratch

It’s normal to be miserable: the itch to scratch
itch: The consolation prize you get, instead of a rich and fulfilling life

We all have it… unnoticed, unidentified, undistinguished, sneaking past your conscious awareness, the strings that make you a puppet on a string, robbing you of your life, using it for its own purposes… laughing at you. I can hear the laugh.

The racket. The insidious, ubiquitous racket.

It is a machine… and it is powered by an unfulfilled and unfulfillable desire, I call The Itch… the itch that cannot be scratched.

The desire for attention, for significance, for winning every transaction, for love, for filling your gaping hole inside. Continue reading “It’s normal to be miserable: the itch to scratch”

Define what is success for you, to become successful

Define what is success for you, to become successful

I sleep poorly the night before every Playground session. It takes me hours to fall asleep, and I have trouble-filled dreams.

So when I got up this past Saturday, it was freezing cold, in the single digits outside… single digits in Fahrenheit is very cold… double digits in the minus in Celsius.

So I pondered what I had to look forward that day. Continue reading “Define what is success for you, to become successful”

People don’t care how much you know… really

People don’t care how much you know… really

…poet and filmmaker Jean Cocteau said.

  • 1. There are truths that you can only say after having won the right to say them.
  • 2. True realism consists in revealing the surprising things that habit keeps covered and prevents us from seeing.
  • 3. What the public criticizes in you, cultivate. It is you.
  • 4. You should always talk well about yourself! The word spreads around, and in the end, no one remembers where it started.
  • 5. We shelter an angel within us. We must be the guardians of that angel.

Continue reading “People don’t care how much you know… really”

Kabbalists say: the bible is code. They, of course, mean: the Old Testament, the 5 books of Moses

Kabbalists say: the bible is code. They, of course, mean: the Old Testament, the 5 books of Moses

Kabbalists say: the bible is code. They, of course, mean: the Old Testament, the 5 books of Moses.

If the Bible is code, then it is not a story… or if there is a story there, it is itself code: meaning an illustration of a principle.

Egypt stands for slavery. Slavery to whatever people are a slave to: riches, significance, sex, entertainment, desire to receive for the self alone, their racket, the racket with which they extort goodies from others, justify their nastiness, their domination, their haplessness.

Extorting sympathy, or whatever they extort.

So what did Moses do with this bunch of slaves? Continue reading “Kabbalists say: the bible is code. They, of course, mean: the Old Testament, the 5 books of Moses”

Removing Barriers to you being all-you-can-be

Removing Barriers to you being all-you-can-be

the subtle art of not giving a fuckI just read an excerpt of Mark Manson’s (vibration: 260) book, about the path to growing… The art of not giving a f*ck

Even the brief is worth reading…

Some people write better than me. Some people find solutions faster than me. Some people can teach ME things… Baah, right?

What Manson says is the essence of the Michelangelo Method of growing.

You remove everything that doesn’t work, everything that is not you, everything that doesn’t support you in living life you love and living it powerfully.

But the sticky part of this process is telling the truth about having been wrong. Continue reading “Removing Barriers to you being all-you-can-be”

So you want to be important… liked… relevant… belonging.

So you want to be important… liked… relevant… belonging.

So you want to be important… liked… relevant… belonging.

This issue is coming to the forefront… This expectation of be made important, liked, relevant, belonging by other people, or by some job, of by association, or by some success.

Or to be liked by behaving in a certain way, be liked by other people because of something you do or don’t do.

It is an aspect of being an effect… not a cause. Little explored by anyone.

You are either in the world of because or you are cause… BE cause

Continue reading “So you want to be important… liked… relevant… belonging.”

Memories of things I’ve done that I am ashamed of

Memories of things I’ve done that I am ashamed of

Last night I spent a lot of time looking at a deluge of memories of things I’ve done that I am ashamed of

I just slashed my finger for the third time this morning. I will have a hard time muscletesting for a bit… Here is what happened:

Last night in bed I spent a lot of time looking at a deluge of memories of things I did that I am ashamed of.

They came, vividly, fast and furious, things I have long forgotten, things I am not proud of.

I resisted the temptation to explain them away, I resisted turning away. I resisted saying they are wrong. Continue reading “Memories of things I’ve done that I am ashamed of”

It is hard to see outside of the trench you dug yourself…

It is hard to see outside of the trench you dug yourself…

The walls of the trench hide what the trench is really about.

I have two students with the same soul correction, both want attention. What they don’t see, what they will have a difficulty seeing is that attention is the wall of the trench… not the cause: an effect. The effect that prevents them from seeing the cause, and prevents them from living a full life.

Let’s look what could be missing? Continue reading “It is hard to see outside of the trench you dug yourself…”