You can’t have a Self until you stop… stop what? Sophie

I had the most interesting and unexpected thing happen to me this morning.

Some Hungarian sounding person signed up to my next Feelings webinar on Sunday at noon, so I checked. Yes, she is a Hungarian woman living in Hungary. Hungarians are not known for their language skills…

I sent a personal email welcoming her, and suggesting that she read the books the webinar is based upon, the Feelings and the Words books by another Hungarian, Margoczi. Érzések

I signed the email with my original Hungarian name.

A minute or two after that email, I felt a very strong weeping emotion… muscletested and it came from this Hungarian woman.

And then I started to talk to her, in my head, Hungarian. And I said “stupid” 1 in Hungarian, the word that signifies slowness, and lack of ability.

And I experienced a strong non-physical pain. Continue reading “You can’t have a Self until you stop… stop what? Sophie”

Is happiness even possible? Is self-hate, self-punishing a good path to it?

It’s Tuesday, and my Rob Brezsny horoscope arrived this morning.

It addressed something I wanted to address, because it is important: treating yourself well by providing yourself with what you need to be well, to do well, to feel well.

You treat your pets better than yourself.

If you were only judgmental and stingy with others, that would be one thing. But you are stingy with yourself.

You judge yourself harshly, you treat yourself badly, and you skimp on yourself first.

Consider yourself your own child, or your own pet? And your relationship, your treatment of it public.

A lot of people, in private, abuse with impunity, but would not dare do the same in public, or when someone can see it. They fear judgment. Continue reading “Is happiness even possible? Is self-hate, self-punishing a good path to it?”

The non-physical pain of being devalued…

There is a very interesting phenomenon and I just experienced it full blast.

This is how it goes: I write something. I think I know what i am saying. but hours later it hits me… wow.

So I wrote in my previous article, this morning, that all pain and suffering you experience is experiencing your own resistance… resistance coming from the 14th floor words: “This should not be…”

And most non-physical pain you experience comes from the devaluation of the I… or the perceived devaluation… and the feedback that is causing it is resisted.

So, consequently all non-physical pain comes from your resistance to feedback.

OK… I said more or less this… but how true and how general it is just hit me.

Here I am sitting by my computer, wondering when the mailman will arrive today. I have something outgoing…
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The size of your foundation, your astuteness, capacities

Note: this is an important article… please read. It summarizes a lot of what is not working about you… and what you can do about it.

I really enjoy the work on people’s hydration.

I love seeing how they get things done (or not) and it is a source of a lot of amusement. Continue reading “The size of your foundation, your astuteness, capacities”

What’s wrong with Osho? Why is his vibration so low?

osho talksI just watched/listened to two Osho talks… And suddenly I realized what I have never seen: why Osho’s vibration is not higher. It dropped from 300 to 280… as more of reality gets revealed, everyone’s vibration gets lower. Seneca’s vibration today is 300, but when he was alive, it was around 800.

So Osho died 25 years ago, give or take, and his vibration, consequently dropped.

OK… so what’s wrong with Osho? After all it is so soothing, so wonderful to listen to him. he is so right!

That is what’s wrong with Osho. Continue reading “What’s wrong with Osho? Why is his vibration so low?”

Why you don’t want what you say you want…

water energizer setupI am working, one-on-one with people who submitted their pictures of their setup of the water energizer.

This has been one of the most brilliant things I have ever decided to do.

Without feedback one may imagine a lot of things, but with feedback, eventually you arrive to the truth, to reality, and there is no room for imagination, fancy, or any other unreality.

The reality is this:

The Water Energizer works… you don’t.
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The connection between your vocabulary and your deserving factor

The connection between the number of words you can correctly use in writing or in speaking and your intelligence, your worth a damn factor, and your deserving the good life… or not.

I am a reader. I read a lot. But yet, a whole new world opened up for me when I started to read on the Kindle. Why? Because it has a built in dictionary. As a result, I have added, to date, 2,000 words to my vocabulary.

It was very cumbersome to read with a dictionary before… I would lose my place, etc.

But the Kindle has made it possible.

I find the word… but sometimes the word in the dictionary is not useful. Continue reading “The connection between your vocabulary and your deserving factor”

How will I teach you to live in reality? The 13th floor

This article will be deemed self-aggrandizing, or something of that sort… and I don’t care. Truth is truth…

I am 69 years old.

I have lived, this is a 20/20 hindsight, my entire life on the 13th floor. Two months ago I would not have said that: I didn’t know there is such a thing…

Having live there all my life: I am having a real tough time to say how I got there… because I never lived on the 14th or the 15th floor… the 13th floor is reality, based on your sensory organs, not on thought.

My brothers did live on the 14th floor. Both. My father also lived on the 13th floor. My mother didn’t. Continue reading “How will I teach you to live in reality? The 13th floor”

I hope I can join you on the 13th floor…

I feel alone. Unheard.

Not a good feeling. It is not that I am on the mountaintop screaming… and am not being heard. No. I am among people, and I am not heard.

What isn’t being heard, what is being ignored, brushed aside, that the reason you are unhappy trying to become happy is because you live on the 14th and the 15th floors of your being…

It is impossible to be happy on those floors.
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Can you be delusional? Never thought that about yourself?

Most of the things I find out were in front of me, in plain sight, but I could not see it.

As I am going deeper and deeper into teaching people to feel their feelings, so they can return to the Tree of Life, I am on uncharted territory. I encounter stuff that has always been there… and in this new context it hits me funny… weird… illogical… counter intuitive: to me.

Whenever I see things from the level I am, most of the things I see are things I have never had, and therefore they are new to me. Unfamiliar… Alien.

Such is the thing i want to write now: the delusion that you need to meet everyone’s expectation of you.

That it is your duty to be good enough for everyone, fast enough, smart enough, deep enough, pretty enough, successful enough, to deserve to live.

Talk about freedom to be yourself… I remember when I wept about that possibility myself… because the world, society, your family, your friends, they are a sea of disapproval.
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