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You Can’t Get Enough Of What You Don’t Want

Warning: this is a very advanced article. You should probably start with the easier ones if you are here for the first time. OK?

An interesting glitch in the nature of reality is that our driving desire, the answer to our dreams, the one thing that would seem to fix our complaints doesn’t fix anything.

We could say that you can’t fix what’s not broken. and actually it would be a very astute remark.

But if that is the case, that the thing we are trying to fix isn’t broken, why does it seem that, what we most complain about not having, would fix it?
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Steal back your future

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What do you carry that weighs you down so much that that you can never ascend?

Or what weight you carry so that you can’t climb the Tree of Life, until you put it down?

Have you noticed that making permanent changes, doing new things, doing things in a new way, going to places unfamiliar is difficult for you, near impossible?

Consider that you are dragging a persona with you. That persona is what makes the going so difficult, so encumbered… Continue reading “Steal back your future”

Human Predatory Genes revisited and looked at again

I am a Manifesting Generator…

It means that you are supposed to follow leads, ideas, invitations coming at you… instead of acting on your “good ideas” that always turn out not to be so good.

I don’t know what it is I talk to, what it is I connect to when I say I connect to Source… but it seems, often, that that “thing” is sentient. It wants what it wants, it doesn’t want what it doesn’t want, it has definite preferences, in sees, like chess master many steps ahead, it strategizes, it changes strategy when the one going on isn’t working: meaning: I am not getting the clue, not getting the hint.

It’s a dance. Every area of life. We are like an odd couple… lol. Continue reading “Human Predatory Genes revisited and looked at again”

Casting errors in movies and what you can learn from them for your life

What is wrong with movies, TV series, that I can’t stomach… or barely?

I am talking about good stories. I am talking about shows with good or passable actors, good directing… And yet the show is scarcely enjoyable because the character doesn’t fit. the inner world of the character is off… tells a different story.

Like the serial killer in The Fall… more about it later.
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It’s 45th that I graduated from architecture school

It put me into a walk-down memory lane mood, and I revisited some events in my life I haven’t remembered in decades.

For example the only person I ever saw as compatible, left after a few weeks, without saying good bye.

I could grieve it, but I think it was fortunate. I loved him too much…

When you love someone or something too much, you put your own self interest on hold, and become a slave to that person or thing…
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When a memory intrudes on you, persistently…

When a memory intrudes on you, persistently, you should consider it as a sign that there is something in that memory that needs to be dealt with.

Mostly wretchedness, I have found. But wretchedness not dealt with, not confronted, not looked straight in the eye, festers and like an undertow, it runs your life.

My memory is an incident from 35 years ago.

I was in Germany, and this man treated me as special. I fell for it. I remember I was going to do anything for him, but he was more awake than myself, and he dumped me.
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Good, evil, truth, justice, moralilty, amoral

As I am battling the issue of finally saying no to what my mother called me when I was three, everything comes at me enlarged, sharper, more painful.

In fact, I haven’t been able to sleep well, and quickly approach exhaustion.

Going through the wall that is between me and going higher is turning out to be quite a challenge, quite a torturous undertaking.
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Tough choices: knowing what’s important and what isn’t

Tough choices: knowing what’s important

Life is really so incredible perfect when you are committed to something, and therefore you look at everything through that commitment.

Here is a quote I had attached to my kitchen cabinet for four years. When I moved it was impossible to save it: it crumbled… lol. It has an awful lot to do with who I am today, and the incredible results I was able to produce in those four years:

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