The price of pretending being kind, nice, friendly, etc.

The price of pretending being kind, nice, friendly, etc.

True-colorsThe price of pretending being kind, nice, friendly, etc. All your colors vs. your true colors painted over… choose

Everyone pretends. Everyone avoids. Everyone is trying to be blameless… but no one is.

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Knowing will not make your life smooth sailing…

Knowing will not make your life smooth sailing…

rough_seasThis article may be a bit upsetting… but hey, I am known for rocking the boat… Being a trouble-maker. Have always been…

Can you identify with this scenario?

Something bothers you. Something hits you the wrong way.

You sit and you say: ‘I know I shouldn’t be upset about this. I know it is not cool. I even know that it is my issue, but I am still bothered.’

And you are bothered, and you are bothered.
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Review: Is Andy Shaw’s book, A Bug Free Mind a fraud? Will you get successful reading it?

bug-free-mindThe original post was written BEFORE I got my copy of The Bug Free Mind book from Andy Shaw. This is the actual review:

I knew it was worth reading, (muscletested it, of course) but I had no idea why. The truth value sounds like not enough, but compared to others’ truth value, it is at least twice, and what may be even more important: it talks about things, it makes you think about things that no one else does… except me.

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The sentence that was worth $100

quotes-about-consciousnessquotelevel-of-consciousnessyour-conscious-levelSometimes it is worth buying a book for $100 that has one sentence… the rest is gravy.

The sentence that was worth the $100 is:

If you are angry at a person who is unconscious, is like being angry at a dog for being a dog.

And at another place
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Christmas, alone, my empath mother, getting to no thing

Christmas, alone, my empath mother, getting to no thing

Christmas of EaglesAs far as I can see back, Christmas was a painful reminder that I am alone.

I always wanted to go home… home was a place where I longed to be, but I had no idea what that would be like. Surely where I lived wasn’t home. Surely the people I was with left me feeling alone.

Later, relationship made my life busy, but I still felt alone. Not envying others, not something wrong, just alone. Like you are on the top of a mountain, and no one to share the experience with.
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The doors to heaven swing on little hinges

The doors to heaven swing on little hinges

The doors to heaven swing on little hinges or the delusion that keeps them closed

What’s missing that ALL self-improvement, self-development products end up on the “fraud” pile that is as high as mount Everest?

Ultimately there are two types of teachers:

  1. Can do (occasionally) what they teach, but unaware and unconscious of what they are doing
  2. Can’t even do what they teach, but expect you to do it regardless

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The evolutionary approach to your inner stress, lack, misery

The evolutionary approach to your inner stress, lack, misery

This article stands the current culture and the current approach to spirituality, consciousness, self-growth on its head… If you are happy to be miserable, please don’t read it!

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The story of your life… told the same way or differently

The story of your life… told the same way or differently

One of my greatest revelations about transformational methods was in the Wisdom Course, a year long Landmark Education program.

It was a method of telling the story of your life.

You can tell the story of your life in a lot of ways.

    • from abuse to abuse
    • from success to success
    • from the point of view of what school you went to

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You asked for your vibrational reading. You don’t agree…

You asked for your vibrational reading. You don’t agree…
You asked for your vibrational reading. You got it. You don’t agree… Here is a public answer

I measured someone’s vibration, re-measured 3 times. It was consistently 100.

We emailed back and forth, this is the last email that came, this morning:

Hello Sophie,
My last message to you was a kind of joke, I must apologize and thank you for your reply. The reason for my writing is to let you know for the final time that you are wrong. My vibration is somewhere around 350, not 100.

Your ‘measurement’ threw me off and brought me down! I was left to ponder and bounce this around my head for too long, (nearly 2 days) before it was finally undeniable that it was not the truth. I am now just left to wonder how often you make such mistakes. People that come to you for help may be vulnerable and I urge you to take caution. I believe that you think you are 100% (maybe just 99%) correct so I will not go into the $ side of this.

The main purpose of this email is to simply urge you to please go and check yourself. Healers are sometimes among the 1st to need healing. I do not personally want anything from you, or expect that you do, this is simply a plea.

Be well,

Thank you, you taught me a big lesson.
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I am glad to share this email with everyone, and answer it publicly. This article is to clarify and explain what is the issue between the email writer and myself… And potentially between what you ask for and what you get.

This article may leave you disturbed, confused. Just hang in there.

Let’s go deep first… below the water level of the iceberg, OK? Language…

First off: my muscletest answers the question I ask. You may have asked a different question, meant a different question, had a different question in mind, but I will take it you asked the same question I will ask ‘Source’ in the muscletest, and therein lies the problem.

Language is both a tool of communication and a tool of deception. Intentional or unintentional

The way we speak it, the listener can only assume that they know what you said. In classes it takes me several minutes to succeed in making the speaker re-word what they said so it is clear and has only on meaning.

You don’t know what you say doesn’t mean anything. You think you are communicating.

And you don’t know what you hear doesn’t mean anything… you think you heard what you think you heard.

The language is a relational associative tool, everything is connected to everything in it… and that is both its strength and its pitfall. 1

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Reality, collective hunch at best… but is that true through and through? What does language have to do with it?

In the Playground we learn and practice a kind of speaking that reduces every utterance to what’s real, what is not associative, not relational, not meaning, not interpretation, not concept, not generality, but real.

Because none of those (concept, generalities, etc.) can be real. If everyone has a different meaning for those, they are not real… real is the same for everyone. Even a Martian (imaginary alien) unfamiliar with our culture, could say the same thing. If you need the Martian to know the cultural meaning of things, it is not real.

Now, what does this have to do with the woman who asked for her vibrational reading and is now suggesting that I have my head examined? (I am exaggerating, this is not what she said… sorry Martian… lol.)

People talk how they talk, and if they actually mean to communicate, they have a defined meaning, a definition of the words they use. Many people like to fish in the muddy waters, and they create the muddy waters with their words… beware.

The imaginary number of vibration is one of these made up ‘distinctions’ that can cause a lot of grief, because it can be used in so many different ways.

Obviously, I am one to blame. I have popularized the word ‘vibration’ but I mean something other than what most people mean.

What most people mean is aliveness, density, energy, mood. But those are derivative of some internal ‘thing’ that I measure.

There are people that say: exercise, and your vibration will jump up. No, your vibration will not respond to exercise, maybe your mood, or your physical energy, or mental clarity, but not your vibration.

There are people that say: anger is low vibration… suppress it. Replace it with love. Or upgrade your emotions by saying more positive things, and your vibration will go up with it.

But that ‘theory’ also considers your vibration as malleable as your temperature…

The vibration that I measure is not changing, it is not like the weather, it is steady.

My vibration doesn’t go down when I am angry, even when I get temporarily depressed, like yesterday.

Your vibration doesn’t go higher when you have a mystical experience. When you feel spiritual. When you feel loving. When you just want to hug everybody.

Because the vibration I measure is a more complex phenomenon: it looks at you in relationship to All-of-it, to possibility, to Expanding Human Being, to the direction of evolution of humans.

The different aspects of a human, of course, know which way they are supposed to grow if they are to keep up with the law of evolution.

What is the current level of humanity on the vibrational scale?

The current level of human evolution 2 is that humans are

  1. risk averse
  2. desires to be lead
  3. will only do something if must
  4. makes all decisions based on first impression and following the herd.

Not that far from the animal kingdom.

These are hard-wired behaviors, like it is hard wired in a fish to live in the water. Yet, some fish climbed out of water eons ago, and practiced living there, until a new species was born that can live on land.

It’s OK to remain a fish, but you need to know that to remain on the level of the stone age man is not your natural state, your natural state, what is in harmony with all-of-it and the inner urge to evolve, is to become a human being.

Most humans will choose to not evolve. To not use brain plasticity, different actions, to get on the path of evolving themselves and the species.

What makes you choose to evolve?

It is a matter of your

  1. level of consciousness, awareness,
  2. your level of seeing reality accurately, and you how you handle fear, thought, and risk…
  3. who and what is calling the shot in your one-person universe.

All these three deserve an article by themselves, I, instead, have workshops, ongoing workshops for them… because, after all, this is behavioral, even your consciousness is behavioral. Unless you look, you won’t see. Unless you stop to think, you’ll always end up with your prejudice. Talking to your prejudiced mind will not make much of a difference. 3

The Playground deals, almost exclusively, with how you see reality accurately.

It is not a very comfortable program, in that most of what you know never happened, not true, and you have lived your life based on that knowledge. Not pleasant to look at your life and see that it’s the result of delusion, fuzzy thinking, mistakes and prejudices. It isn’t, trust me.

But the rewards are tremendous. Miraculous, if you ask me.

People ask me how I raise my own vibration from 35 to 180, and I can tell you, it was 90% in the Playground that I did it. I had nearly everything I know turn out to be not so… grrrr… but once I saw it, it was gone. For good.

What do the remedies do with regards to evolution?

The remedies help with fear and taking steps that will take you out of the water. They also help you to have the courage to look around and not be fixated on what tries to hold your attention: mostly bad stuff.

In the Itch experiment and what will come out of it, an actual course, we’ll take back our power to call the shot, instead of leaving it to happenstance, circumstance, other people, prejudice, fear, resistance, anger, and other stuff like that.

The woman who I mention in the beginning of this article, has a different interpretation of vibration, and never considered that we are not talking about the same thing.

She feels at peace gardening, and such, and keeps herself at this calm by meditating, and such. (I actually don’t know what she does, though the gardening is her words)

The inner tension is barely noticeable, because her soul has given up. I feel your inner tension stronger than you do, maybe because it is my curse to feel it so strongly. I have had clients that I felt they are not breathing, and they said ‘I am breathing’ but when I checked, they breathed with only 10% of their lung capacity… the chest and the belly didn’t move at all.

I felt that they weren’t breathing, they weren’t.

So, with this woman, I feel the inner tension between soul and the rest, she probably doesn’t, at least that is what she says.

Playing possum, retreating from life, doing peaceful things, is low vibration on my vibrational scale. It is not a life suitable to a human being… it is settling for less, following, maybe years, the inner calling to avoid taking risks, avoid being found out, avoid being alive.

Some of my students take frequent breaks to go into that ‘barely breathing’ mode… but they come back, and risk again.

Who am I to tell you what to do? I root for you, I see the potential in you, I feel your inner desire and inner tension… but ultimately you decide who you are going to be.

My job is to accept it. I may not like it, I may weep, I may get angry, but I accept it. And don’t ask you to live by any standards other than your own.

I allow it. Let it be. Make room for it. However it is against what I think is right, what I think should be, what I think you should do… I allow it.

In my experience, that is the hardest thing to do for the unevolved human. Pretending that you do: hey, that’s easy. But to allow, energetically, emotionally, in every way… that is hard.

And, surprise, once you allow anything, it allows you to be. Allows you to look. Allows you to think intelligently. And maybe, maybe, answer something intelligent, that truly connects to another person, and helps them through the barrier they are experiencing. Or not.

And your (my) job is, to allow that, as well.

That is why I decided to call myself the Edison of Transformation: Edison did not resist any of the results his failing experiments showed. Instead, he stayed calm, collected, (maybe after carryiong on a bit? lol!) and then regaining his inner balance, looked what is useful in what happened.

Hey, I can’t think of a better person to model myself after.

PS: what do you think of Rob Brezsny’s horoscope? Can you see the connection?

I enjoy getting spam emails with outrageous declarations that are at odds with common sense. ‘Eating salads makes you sick’ is one of my favorites, along with ‘Water is worse for you than vodka’ and ‘Smoking is healthier than exercising.’ Why do I love reading these laughable claims? Well, they remind me that every day I am barraged by nonsense and delusion from the news media, the Internet, politicians, celebrities, and a host of fanatics. ‘Smoking is healthier than exercising’ is just a more extreme and obvious lie than many others that are better disguised. The moral of the story for you in the coming week: Be alert for exaggerations that clue you in to what’s going on discreetly below the surface. Watch carefully for glitches in the Matrix.