Become all you can become by raising yourself higher on the Tree of Life

Bread of shame and the capacity that makes it OK to receive… by earning it retrospectively.

Bread of shame ¹ is a term Kabbalah uses for a situation when someone receives and receives, with no means, no desire, or no opportunity to reciprocate or earn it.

Welfare recipients eat bread of shame.
Adult children who don’t pull their weight live on bread of shame

And I have had some opportunities for bread of shame…

Receiving bread of shame is often the perpetration in the perpetration-withhold dynamic.

You receive unearned benefits… and to compensate, you get angry and hate the giver. Nasty dynamic. Sinister.
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There is no such thing as a free lunch… you need to earn it. Somehow

The concept of earning it, earning the light, earning the capacity

People who come to me don’t know that you cannot have anything long without earning it.

In Kabbalah they talk about the advance of Light… that you lost with interest… if you don’t do what you promised to do.

I learned this the hard way: I promised to send a stack of postdated checks as a donation to the Kabbalah Centre. Then I realized that it wasn’t going to work for me, and didn’t send the checks.

When I made the promise, the result was almost instant: I got several orders, and I made a lot of money that day.

Then, when I decided not to send the checks, the refund requests came, I hurt my back and had to see a chiropractor every day for two weeks, and my car broke down needing repair.
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Wanting to help? Don’t get hooked and pulled off your path

A friend of mine called me this morning. He reported that on Channel 5 they are selling audios like mine. I got hooked.

I said: “Not audios like mine! audios sounding like mine… Those audios are just sound, no energy!” actually I shouted it.

But he had a different agenda, he just needed a foot in the door… But for that he needed to pull me out of my equilibrium, my harmony… like make me stand on one foot, or rub my tummy circularly with one hand and hit my head… near impossible.
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Updated: Higher Vibration and The Illusion of Dark Side

Questions about dark side and dark energies are coming up a lot nowadays.

My approach to dark side

… is Kabbalistic because Kabbalah’s approach to this issue is more useful for someone who wants to understand the issue or Dark Side.

You see, “where attention goes energy flows.” And that attention actually creates or strengthens that which it energizes, even if it wasn’t there before. Especially when you say you don’t want it. Resistance to something is like pouring oil on the fire… makes it bigger. Like “I have no time”, like : I am confused,” like “nobody likes me.” creates exactly what it complains about. Or “I am NOT stupid” or “I don’t want to feel this” or telling fear to go away, and the thousand and one way you can resist something. Even ignoring something is resistance to it.

In a recent Landmark Education seminar I learned that the poison that human beings swallowed wholly and greedily is “there is something wrong here,” the foundation of human misery, the dark side: Right and Wrong… behaving as if there were a right way and this isn’t it.

It seems that you never stop for a second to ask the questions that could create choice:

Possible question to create choice #1:
You ask: Hm, Something wrong here? Says who? Then answer: _I_ say so (the same person who asked the question). Next: ask: who assigned me to be the judge? Do I know how it is supposed to be? Do I see the whole picture? — And if you are anyone other than God, the answer is that you can’t see the whole picture, and therefore you don’t know if it is really wrong what’s happening… so you can see that you can’t tell wrong from right… Not knowing is a much higher state than being sure.

Possible question #2: Who or what wins if I choose to say “there is something wrong here.”
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I won’t do anything for money I wouldn’t do for free

I promised to you to report whether the method I recommended worked or not.

The method: tell the story in a way that you completely own what belongs to you, your actions, your reactions, your attitude, your thoughts, your emotions, your expectations, your intentions, etc. And keep telling the story until all the blame disappears.

Now, just by retelling the story to you, I managed to disappear the blame. (Of course I have been practicing taking responsibility for what I own, what belongs to me, for decades! You may not get such fast result!) I started to feel energized, happy, bright, and ambitious again. I started to ask questions and get answers.
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Confessions Of An Empath

Somehow this article got lost… I don’t know how… it disappeared from the site… Weird. This is a “reprint”

Confessions Of An Empath

I didn’t know that the feelings I experienced weren’t only mine until a few months ago. I was 63 years old. I had never heard about the phenomenon, so I never suspected.

I had a long history of living like a phoenix… burned and crashed and then reborn from the ashes.

My Mother, the empath

I hear that the curse of being an empath is inherited, and upon further looking into the path, confirming it with muscletesting, my mother carried the cursed gene.

Did she show any signs of being empathic in ways that it would be a good thing? Not at all. Instead she showed the aspect of empaths that the unaware empath demonstrates: being the trash collector of other people’s badness.
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You Wake Up In The Morning Only Because You Didn’t…

You Wake Up In The Morning Only Because You Didn’t Die The Night Before

There is a core group of people that come to every class, every meditation, read most of what I write.

You would expect them to rise steadily on the vibrational scale, wouldn’t you? I did.

To my dismay they aren’t. Why not? They are doing the work, right? You say. Maybe even they say that.

No. They don’t. They may pretend to do the work, but the work they do, is not the work to do.

Let me explain: The work to do is to restore the Original Design in your own life, and live it.
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