The most frequent energy leak that holds you back

I just realized that I left out one of the most frequent energy leaks, need leaks from the last article.

And that is the minuscule pleasure you gain when you feel clever, when you feel you got one over someone, when you are told you are clever.

Or maybe that you are pretty. Maybe some other compliment, that you are put together. Or that you do a good job. Or that someone pays attention to you. It is all the same bait.

Any compliment that you find important.

You are the guy/gal who, when you do the five questions exercise, you pay attention to the positive feedback. When you listen to me: you are waiting for the positive feedback… and hear none of the negative, or if you do, you grieve about it, but won’t change a thing.

You are a whore for little pleasures, ego boost, ego gratification, ego stroking.

You sold who you could be for a bowl of lentils. Bowl of lentils or whatever it was that Esau sold his firstborn right to Jacob for.

You always thought he was stupid, he was greedy… but he was you.

As long as you are hooked on this pleasure/release, you’ll never amount to anything… guaranteed. Because anything worth achieving requires you to control the release… to bear with discomfort, to hold your peepee, so to say.

To be someone who can handle it.

I am lucky. My parents never complimented me, so I never thought I was clever and I never thought that I don’t have to work for things.

They did tell my two brothers, though. And both of them suffered because of it.

One married someone who pushed him, the other one married someone who didn’t.

Their lives turned out as different as their wives…

And me? I worked my ass off, got into trouble, got thrown out, was rich, was poor, went from country to country, learned seven languages, and here I am, attempting to teach you something that can change your life, that can return you to the path of becoming a person, to fulfill the Original Design.

Obviously my chances are between slim and none.

Because to change, you need to make a huge and consistent effort to take more and more discomfort, more and more pain, without trying to fix it.

Do you want to? I don’t feel that you are… but I am willing to be surprised.

Some of you are… to some degree.

One of the tests is what you do with the guidance you get from me about your health.

If you do well with it, then you probably will do well with everything.

If you don’t… well, we know that how you do anything is how you do everything.

One good sign I have: the new clients are a whole new breed. And with them I think I can start a revolution.

The old clients, nearly all came at the time when it seemed that what I am about is doing it for you… energy healing and such.

Or: just connect to Source and get everything you wanted.

Laughable. But you see I had to get clearer myself… and I have to admit it to you and to myself that I didn’t know how to take you to the promised land, to Heaven on Earth, because a lot of knowledge was still missing.

And my hunch is there is still a lot missing. But the truth value of what I am teaching is climbing steadily.

And it’s a journey. If you are waiting for someone who knows everything you’ll get someone who pretends that they know everything… just like you have.

The ability to be in awe. how will it matter for your life?

aweSometimes it is the people no one can imagine anything of who do the things no one can imagine~Alan Turing

I watched yet another movie about Alan Turing and how his machine won the war against Nazi Germany.

I would not be around without him. My parents, my race would have perished. And you would live a totally different life… The book (and the Amazon series) The Man in the High Castle approximates…

I am in awe. With what he did, with who he was, with genius winning, with goodness winning.

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Want to Be a fly on my wall? This may be my most revealing rant…

sunday-rantsSunday Rants

Want to get inside my head? What I think in my privacy? What I say to my faithful talking partner of nine years?

The calls last about 90 minutes, and you can have access to them.

Will you understand? Who knows? But they are really the politically incorrect thoughts and utterances of a “mystic”, whatever that means.

Are they interesting? I think so. Some calls more than others.
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What foods cause obesity, delusions, mood swings?

Delusions, Lies, Pretenses, Obesity — what is the cause?

Most people think that they are honest people. Some people know that they lie about this and that.

What they don’t know is that they live on the top of a huge iceberg of lies, delusions, pretenses, but they can only see the tip of the iceberg… unless…

This week was a line of demarcation for me, in more ways than one. Continue reading “What foods cause obesity, delusions, mood swings?”

Are mind movies, vision boards mental representation?

movie-mind-controlAre mind movies, vision boards mental representation?

Yes and no. Mind movies and vision boards are a mental representation of the end point of some fancy that you have… creative visualization or not so creative visualization. Low vibration, low consciousness, wishful thinking stuff. Continue reading “Are mind movies, vision boards mental representation?”

Falling in step, intelligence, tough choices

hardest-decisionsFalling in step

I just finished a Talk-to-me call. It’s a call available for people on my mailing list, where they can ask any questions and get answers, coaching, whatever they need. The call was a breakthrough  for me, in a lot of ways.

First off, I distinguished for myself, for the second time, that unless I fall in step with the person I coach, they can’t get what I am saying as contribution and cannot act on it.

Falling in step with music is obviously fun. Falling in step with a drum circle is fun. But falling in step with another person is a challenge. But unless you do, discord is the result.

So what does it take to fall in step with another person in a conversation? Whether it is a co-worker, a parent, a child, a spouse, a friend, if you learn to fall in step with them, you’ll experience influence, intimacy, closeness… all the things that are missing in most relationships.
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Gary Douglas and Access Consciousness… a review

A few years ago when I first ‘reviewed’ Access Consciousness I didn’t check for attachments… and unfortunately my high evaluation exposed a lot of people to the nasty attachments Access Consciousness puts on people. I apologize. If you are one who got involved, please get in touch.

The Gary Dougless, Dain Heer bunch is as nasty as Scientology, maybe even nastier because of their ability to put an energetic attachment on you and keep you trapped.

More of my notes at the end…

Here is an article I found online:

WHAT’S BEHIND GARY DOUGLAS’S SCIENTOLOGY KNOCKOFF?

BY CRAIG MALISOW in The Houston (Texas) Press
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The key to attainment is counter to human nature

There is a key to attainment, and it is quite counter to human nature.

To attain is to succeed in achieving (something that one desires and has worked for).

The master-disciple relationship is based on it, and today, we can say, safely, there is no master-disciple relationship nowadays.

Every person that has ever attained… attained to the highest level a human can go, invented it for themselves… because you can’t find it anywhere, and no one can teach it to you.
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Panache Desai’s Soul Signature… Dissolving Density Programs and why they don’t work

it-talks-to-your-mindAny program that talks to your mind, the automatic thinking mind, is doomed to fail. But first it will titillate, soothe, much like a lullaby of a mother.

Why cannot they change you, and actually move you up where your soul wants to go?

Because you are stuck on low levels, young levels, and to unstuck you from there requires work… work that may not be pleasant, but unless it’s done, you are stuck forever.

The teachers you follow, the teachers whose products you buy, have one thing in common: they can sell ice to an Eskimo.

And you, who buys their product: you have one thing in common: you hope that life is going to be easy, and that by some miraculous way you can wish yourself out of the deep hole you live in.
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You live inside a machine called racket….

the racket …and you feed the machine, relentlessly

Every single human (and to a certain degree lots of animals) has automatic ways of being, that could be called a machine, because their behavior is predictable, it is machine-like. Push a button and outcomes the same result, every time.

And every person I know is, more or less, an emotional wreck. a thinly disguised heap of upsets, fears, anxieties, and other very unpleasant feelings.

As an empath I see the disguise and feel the truth. Continue reading “You live inside a machine called racket….”