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If you pay attention: you won’t want to read this post. You won’t want to know what keeps your vibration low. You are scanning the internet, the horizon, the people around you for feedback: that you are already all you can be.
This ‘not wanting to‘ is essentially what I am talking about in this article, this insistence, this forcefulness.
I wrote this article in 2016. Humanity has gotten worse sence. More forceful…
I don’t want to… I don’t like it… arrgh, nooo!
This is my standard and automatic reaction to nearly every task I need to do in my business. Resistance.
I am not naturally and innately the surrendering type. I am fiercely independent, and I even abhor my own ideas that make me do something… almost anything.
My dominant mode is ‘avoid domination’… or ‘dominate’.
Your dominant mode of killing life is predetermined in your soul correction. And your purpose in life, throughout your lifetime, is to tame that beast.
Your resistance to life, your dominant mode of killing life is like a beast. A wild beast that prevents you from climbing the tree of life. Prevents you from raising your consciousness, raising your vibration. From living a good life.
So what could be YOUR dominant mode? Your dominant way you resist life, your dominant way you relate to other people?
These are the most frequent forceful approaches to killing life I know:
You want to:
- look good
- avoid looking bad
- be right
- make another wrong
- avoid being wrong
- win
- avoid losing
- dominate
- avoid domination
- justify self/explain
- invalidate another
- avoid being responsible/ownership/blame/power/causing
If you look at any of these above, these are all forceful, more or less violent reactions to life, to change, to others.
As I said in my last post, to the degree that you conquer this forcefulness, to the same degree your vibration rises.
And to the degree you allow these to dominate, to the same degree your vibration drops…
It is not easy.
Do enlightened people stop resisting, wanting to look good, and avoid looking bad?
It isn’t that it isn’t easy. More that it is not getting easier. It requires constant vigilance…
And the dominant mode won’t change, no matter what level of vibration you are at.
After all this is your soul correction. And because of the soul’s dual nature, soul correction is not possible. Only management is. Managing the evil inclination… all these forceful urges to look good, be right, etc. All at another person’s expense.
People talk about enlightenment, about enlightened people. But you are being fed a lie. They are feeding you with illusion that you can do some work now and then it is all smooth sailing thereafter.
Happy horseshit.
It is as if they said that if you brush your teeth now, you won’t have to do it ever again.
I know you eat up that bromide… but let me wake you up: it isn’t how it works.
If and when anyone says that, that is a clear indication that they had never been on that level… so they lie. And you buy it.
So, let me tell you the truth: the dominant mode of killing life never ever gets weaker… it just gets recognized faster.
OK… I am going to share here what I’ve been doing so I am less forceful. You’ll notice that it has phases… like any process.
You can’t enter a PhD program at age 6, you have to go to elementary school… So don’t start with the advanced methods… Please.
My main mode of killing life is I don’t want to do what there is to do. My insides get all tense, I even get nauseous. Not fun.
- In the beginning, the ‘I don’t want to‘ won out most of the time. Kindergarten.
- Then I ‘graduated’ to the questioning phase, where I used reasoning to beat it… ‘Why’ was my question. Elementary school.
When I could figure out why I was resisting, I could go beyond the resistance.
- Then came the second ‘why’ phase, why I should do what I was resisting, regardless. High school.
What is the big picture? What’s the context I can wrap it … so I can go past the resistance…
More often than not I choose love, curiosity, or service as the context. One of them will do the trick.
For chores, like laundry, the dishes my context is: ‘I will feel better about myself’
- And then comes the next phase. College through graduate school.
I notice the resistance. But I don’t resist it. I just run around a little bit, maybe play a game of Freecell, and then do what there is to do. I take my resistance with me, and get into the activity I was resisting. The resistance disappears.
Is there an even higher phase after this?
I have no idea. I never concern myself with the future… Because I have my hands full with the present… lol. Don’t you?
If you are in the Reality Challenge you may want to consider that all your shoulds are about that forceful killing life… and that is a new angle to look at it from.
