Become all you can become by raising yourself higher on the Tree of Life

Bread of shame and the capacity that makes it OK to receive… by earning it retrospectively.

Bread of shame ¹ is a term Kabbalah uses for a situation when someone receives and receives, with no means, no desire, or no opportunity to reciprocate or earn it.

Welfare recipients eat bread of shame.
Adult children who don’t pull their weight live on bread of shame

And I have had some opportunities for bread of shame…

Receiving bread of shame is often the perpetration in the perpetration-withhold dynamic.

You receive unearned benefits… and to compensate, you get angry and hate the giver. Nasty dynamic. Sinister.
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You decide: mind candy or good teaching?

Life is a game. This is your strategy guide

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Real life is the game that – literally – everyone is playing. But it can be tough. This is your guide.

Basics

You might not realise, but real life is a game of strategy. There are some fun mini-games – like dancing, driving, running, and sex – but the key to winning is simply managing your resources.

Most importantly, successful players put their time into the right things. Later in the game money comes into play, but your top priority should always be mastering where your time goes. Continue reading “You decide: mind candy or good teaching?”

Your life is a mess. can you clean it up with consciousness?

I was talking about the wrong turns one makes in life; you make them several times a day…

To the mind, choosing between two options, and getting yourself into a horrible dead end is no big deal. Easy as pie…

Getting your out of it: for the mind it is impossible.

Let me say that again: for the mind, getting itself out of the mess it got you into, is impossible. Not hard… impossible.

So I have been testing Consciousness in the same arena.
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What do I know that you don’t, that I don’t often get upset? In spite of my peppery constitution…

One of the things I learned in Landmark Education, ² is that there is physical development, and there is emotional, ethical, moral development each person needs to go through to become a fully functioning adult.

It was brand new information to me and it blew my mind.

It was new to me in spite of the fact that I was educated, having read thousands of books… even about child psychiatry, and yet, it was an earth shattering revelation to me.

I, like other people, thought that children were born with the capacity to understand why certain things are harmful, etc.

I’d thought that the inability to comprehend and appreciate responsibility for your own actions, for example, was not inability, instead it was unwillingness. Ability as programmed by the genes wasn’t becoming clear to me until about 13 years later. Continue reading “What do I know that you don’t, that I don’t often get upset? In spite of my peppery constitution…”

Without distinctions everything stays the same

In the old Landmark Education Forum, or in the old 4-day Forum, the old Advanced course… the course leader came in yelling: “for you everything is the same as everything else…” or alternatively: “You don’t know your ass from a hole in the ground“.What are distinctions and what they have to do with a life worth living?

What they meant to say is that you don’t have distinctions and therefore life is a mess of undifferentiated stuff… and you have no power with it.

Distinctions are the different ways to look at things. There are a lot of those… most of those you don’t have.

In the normal course of events you judge things looking through the distinctions you have. Why? you don’t have a choice about it.
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Is a five year old running your life? Running it to the ground?

The knee jerk reaction is, universally, to want to fix what doesn’t work, what doesn’t please us.

“It’s wrong and it needs to be fixed.” you say…

This fixing thing has brought you more misery with every attempt to fix it. The more fixing you do the more unbearable life becomes, and the further the life you wanted to live has moved.

It’s not a mirage, it’s how it is. Not only seem that way. You get deeper into the bind all your fixings caused you.

But yet, every time you see something that doesn’t work as well as you’d like it, you have a new opportunity to fix it and go deeper into misery, or bring conscious awareness to it to see what you can see in the light of conscious awareness.

I will bring my example here. I’ll make it a business example, please indulge me.
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Another way lack of humility screws with you

The Detached/Unattached ³ capacity workshop evolved into a major tranformational process course… which I didn’t know it was going to do. ⁴

Lots of insights, but here is one I want to share:

In your life, beginning with your life in the womb, you made up stories about how you are, how others are, how life is.

Your life, the quality of your life, whether you are worth a damn, whether you have knowledge, strategy, whether you do something worth doing or not, are given by the stories you made up.
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Powerful, powerless… how can you tell?

I have been getting attachments. I am noticing, they come mostly on the weekends.

So the sender or senders are working slobs… and tormenting people is their hobby.

They are, I think, using voodooo techniques: making a model of me, and pushing pins in the model.

The reason I think it is a voodoo doll, because they are getting very precise, whereas a healer who intends to heal, is very sloppy, otherwise why would they connect to another they intend to heal in their eyes, throat, of sinuses… would make no sense.

So yesterday I had four attachments on my head, in a straight line, like a mohawk head dress, and by this morning they added a fifth, smack in my Tangerine Spot.

I must be standing in the vertical dimension, because there is no anger, no anguish, no fear, no hurry… nothing. Just headache.

Now, I am sharing this for two reasons:
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Are you a soul-less human? Are reptilian influences real?

The reason humanity (and your life) looks the way it looks is because you are a coward.

What do I mean by that? Some people know that they are cowards, some people suspect that they may be cowards, but most people don’t know and don’t give a rat’s ass if they are cowards or not.

What am I talking about?

I am talking about humans’ delusional nature.

It takes courage to have a worldview where you are responsible for what you do, who you are being, what you say. Continue reading “Are you a soul-less human? Are reptilian influences real?”

Behavioral strategies vs. beingness strategies

We all want to be loved. It’s hardwired, because being loved is the surest way to be fed, as a child, get sex as an adult, be promoted or helped as an adult.

Its purpose is survival.

The organism wants to survive, desperately.

We don’t know what that love is, but we want it. And some of us want to earn it. Continue reading “Behavioral strategies vs. beingness strategies”