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I caught myself grieving yesterday.
I got a brochure in the mail that had pictures of Budapest in it. I left Hungary, and Budapest, the capital I was born and lived for 34 years 32 years ago.
Every time I considered grieving, a song welled up in my head, a song about home and home sickness. It’s about longing, and it’s about regret. And I refused to regret anything. Like Edith Piaf, Je ne regrette rien. No regrets. 1
Continue reading “What are you grieving for when you are grieving?”
It is undeniable that there is more to reality than what you can see with your eyes. The below the water level stuff… or behind the curtain type of stuff… mostly about the invisible dynamics, the invisible motive powers of people, and maybe even stuff.
I grew up atheist, a Marxist, and a seriously anti-religious child. Most of that wasn’t from my parents, I don’t ever remember them talking about any of that among themselves: they almost never talked to me about anything.
I never thought there were monsters under the bed, or that the Easter Bunny filled the boots in the windows (we are talking about Hungarian customs, don’t get confused!) or any other superstition. I was free to observe… unimpeded, unhindered, unguided by others’ imagination and fantasies, like religion.
I knew there were at least two layers to every human: what they showed and what was inside…
Continue reading “Spiritual? Religious? Atheist?”
The similarity between organized religion and medicine… is there any? or Is it the mind or is it the Ego that is holding you back, that is not allowing you to change?
During a recent coaching session, the student was giving the mind all the credit for her issues: fear of making a mistake, fear of doing anything new, fear of trusting anyone or anything, etc. Continue reading “The similarity between organized religion and medicine”
The human brain may be vast, the human consciousness may be vast, but neither of them compares to the vastness of reality.
So no matter how much human consciousness grows, it will never be able to grasp all of reality.
It’s OK… it is just what is so.
Human consciousness, in its ambition, in its desire to comprehend reality, to reduce the risk that life is, to make life predictable and manageable, has been using models of reality: a model is a tool to simplify something complicated, and to make it comprehensible through generalization, imagination.
Continue reading “Models of reality: which one is true?”
Summery: Money, sex, food, position… the ultimate distractions… And, judging from readers emails: anything that can take our minds off life, reality… entertainment, drugs, will get our attention, our power, our money… our lives.
Kabbalah says that we all have an aspect that can be called The Opponent. It is like the Devil in you… the opposite of The Spirit, The Soul, or whatever you want to call it. It is the aspect of you that wants to fail you, and it works 24/7.
I woke up to a beautiful day this morning. It was barely day yet, but the sky was a beautiful shade of parisian blue, the snow covered huge tree in front of the house glistened a golden brown. What a beautiful day, how nice warm the bed is, how beautiful life is… I snuggled in deeper and fell asleep again.
Then I had a dream, a vivid dream.
Continue reading “Money, sex, food, position… the ultimate distractions… but so is bragging about your achievements!”
Some people are like grasshoppers, others like butterflies, some bees, bumble bees. I seem to be the kind of person who sticks with one “plant” until its juices become tasteless, or until it’s time to move on.
My current fascination is with Neal Stephenson, whose novels I would call historical fiction.
I have read the Cryptonomicon, and I am 60% into Quicksilver (The Baroque Cycle No. 1). The main characters of this book are the same family as in Cryptonomicon, only 300 years earlier. In addition to the main characters, Isaac Newton and Gottfried Wilhelm Leibniz. Now, you can do your reading on these two giants of science, mathematics, geometry, astrology, if you want, I won’t do it. I am not into that. I am into catching glimpses of heaven in everything I do, everything I watch, everything I read.
Continue reading “Why You Still Need God. But where do you find God?”
The biggest issues that I see students deal with are around the fear of taking a wrong step.
The underlying belief, the underlying assumption is that the soul’s path, your life’s work is a straight line and unless you are on that line, you are off.
This is a very debilitating belief. 2 It is perpetuated by the ego: the ego wants to minimize your investment, and maximize your gains, and it fancies itself to know what you should do.
In the case of life path, what’s next for you, etc. questions, it opts to no action, no change… after all the ego’s job is to keep you safe, and safe, when the ego looks, is mostly staying the safe. You have survived until that point, after all. The ego is interested in looking good and surviving.
The ego’s interest and the soul’s interest are diametrically opposed. The soul wants you to move, to take risks, to have a learning experience. But most importantly, the soul wants your life, your activities, your path to have a direction.
Continue reading “Are you on the right track… integrity… compass… conscience. Is there such a thing as a path?”
When I look at how people live, I notice an interesting thing: people have a relationship with their life I could best call gossipy. 3
They talk about it, they complain about it, they wish it were different, but the one thing that would make a difference, own it, they don’t do.
This is, I think, is the result of millennia 4 of brainwashing.
In the beginning there were planetary events, that often became catastrophic. They came fast, they were impossible to interpret correctly, and they wiped out the population of countries, entire species, brought about floods and ice ages, starving, and epidemics.
Life was not in your hand, at the time, you were thrown about like a pebble, and with about as much care, by nature.
It makes sense to me that humans wanted to make sense, wanted to understand why those things were happening, so they made up stories by the look of things, a whole parallel world of gods battling it out in the skies, while the unfortunate humanity was reduced to watching it and suffering as collateral damage.
No human could change the heavenly storms, poor, rich, educated or not educated, all fell victim equally.
Continue reading “You have a gossipy relationship to life, and to your life”
One of my favorite books is Seth Godin’s ‘All Marketers Are Liars.’
Now, this book isn’t teaching not to believe everyone’s story, it teaches how to craft your story so people that are like you, that people that are easily fascinated, will become your fans.
In the industry of healers, gurus, psychics, ascension people, the stories are more important than in any other industry.
Continue reading “Marketers are storytellers, often liars… Healers, teachers, gurus, are marketers. And they are liars if their stories are lies…”
People in general are addicted to seeking out and listening to “teachers” they think they know something that is not knowable to an ordinary person.
The way to “know” is to have “supernatural abilities.”
What is supernatural? And what is esoteric? 5
If you look at the Map of Consciousness, you can see that there is no such thing as supernatural, there are vibrational differences. And, probably, there are glitches. And maybe mutants? lol…
Human Being, in his Original Design state is pretty close to what you call supernatural. Yes, compared to the atrophied, slavish, sheeplike human of today, the Original Man was really powerful.
Each generation of humans became more removed from Source, and now, in the sixth generation, there are hardly any traces of the magnificent design we once had.
Some people retained some semblance of the original, but not many. Why? I am not sure. I don’t even have a theory. Maybe genetic, maybe atavistic, maybe a glitch, maybe outside influence. I don’t know.
One capacity that can be considered supernatural because it’s pretty cool, is empathy.
True Empaths are able to connect to anything well defined enough, and feel it, accurately, both on the emotional and the sensory level.
Continue reading “Supernatural? Empaths, sensitive, empathic person… what is the truth?”
