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Case Study #4: Landmark Education and its programs

Originally posted 2011-06-25 13:04:23.

I first participated in what is now called Landmark Education back in 1985, the last weekend of August, in Haifa Israel.

I lived in an immigration hostel, I worked as an architect and town planner in Jerusalem and I was miserable.

In quick succession two Russian immigrants killed themselves: I knew and liked them both. One of them was so determined that she manage to hang herself from the window bars, even though the window sill was only about 20 inches… Knee high.

I was going to be next. Except that someone invited me to something on a Wednesday evening.

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What, when, why, and how of what happened

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In this short article I’ll regale what has really happened to me and my body, that I have been struggling to stay alive for so long.

I have had an infected water connection… don’t know more than that… I assume I have had it for years… maybe more than a decade.

The organism creates neurotoxins and thus I have been taking that for years. Continue reading “What, when, why, and how of what happened”

The feedback that made me look again at myself

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Hi Sophie,

Thank you for writing this (yesterday’s) article. I too have wanted a magic and quick way to get to the conclusion or result of something. But with using the sight capacity and also looking at my past projects or successes, the quick “shortcut” way almost never works, or doesn’t lead to a sustained result.

Lately I also had a bit of time to reflect when I wasn’t feeling well on a couple of days. I had been reviewing some of the past communications that we had before, such as the guidance that you provided in the food lists, since 2017. I realized that several times where I did not follow the guidance, I thought I knew better or took what you said personally, or thought it meant I was “wrong” (though I can tell now that you were just saying ‘A is A’). For example, when you said I had inflammation, I automatically went to “inflammation is bad” and “it is wrong for me to have inflammation”. While I didn’t doubt that what you said was correct, I struggled to accept it, as it didn’t match what I wanted to believe, or my view of reality.

Anyway this ties into your latest article where you talked about people doing what they say they will do, and quickly. Getting well for me has been a process too. It’s the small actions that I take every day that over time lead to progress. This includes eating only foods on my food list, noticing my attitudes, slowing down instead of rushing, listening to the big bundle during the night, and using the energy healing audio. There have been some periods recently where I made a kind of experiment to (temporarily) do the opposite of what would improve my health, and not surprisingly, I did not feel happy and energetic. I felt worse and I couldn’t maintain focus and be productive. So I have made a commitment to myself to go back to the strait and narrow, to go back to what was working, as my purpose is to achieve and sustain health, even if there are parts to it that I don’t understand. I get reminders of the debilitating back pain and stiffness if I accidentally eat something with leaves, and from that I get sufficient motivation to stay on track. I definitely don’t want to live a life where I feel that pain nearly every day as I did in early 2022. The vast majority (if not all!) of the actions that I can take to move me in the right direction with regards to my health are within my control, and I am very grateful for that.

I hope that you can make it through this difficult time Sophie. I get that every day is a challenge for you, and it’s very difficult and painful and there is a lot of uncertainty. Thank you for continuing to look for the pieces of the invisible through all of this and I wish the very best for you.

We need to cut our coat according to our cloth

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is your integrity so low? Why, when you say ‘I’ll do that‘ it is almost 100% certain that you won’t? Boggles the mind doesn’t it?

It boggles the mind even though it is natural.

This is just one unnatural thing, to always expect do what you said ‘I’ll do‘ fast, preferably instantly and with lovely attitude. Continue reading “We need to cut our coat according to our cloth”

What is the rarest activity? and the most frequent?

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Your original false solution for everything is going to nudge you till you die.

My original false solution is hope. Actions based on hope. Hope that things will be OK, or better.

Or that I am ready now… that I’ll survive.

I could not see this until I got myself into the situation where my survival is not handled yet, of maybe even can’t be handled no matter what I do. Continue reading “What is the rarest activity? and the most frequent?”

It is like being waterboarded… again and again and again.

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It is like being waterboarded… again and again and again.

Waterboarding is, of course, a torture technique designed to break an enemy captured.

Horrible. Even if you survive you have PTSD, nightmares.

And much of this ordeal with my health was like waterboarding… whenever I set my head on a pillow on the bed.

Whether it will last of not is still a question: I don’t have the courage to test it tonight. I’ll do the sitting upright, leaning against something catching minutes of bliss that way. That way at least I am only tortured by tiredness, not by the fear of drowning.

Yesterday while I was looking for a way to end it all, I wanted to post on Facebook: if you can’t sleep, you can’t live… or something like that.

I hadn’t known that. I used to always be able to sleep. Maybe not as well as I wanted to. Maybe not as long as I wanted to, But I could sleep.

Now I can’t. Hopefully I can learn to sleep again.

Sleep again in bed.

So tonight I was testing out some of my own energy audios to see how well they will stand up to the panic this sense of suffocating death creates.

I tried a few. Some, interestingly, conveyed the anxiety I had when I recorded them.

But one has performed amazingly. Of course it is no proof yet, but as soon as I removed the audio, the panicked breath returned… As soon as I removed the ear bud.

the audio is called heaven on earth silent short.

—I wrote the above a few days ago…

Yesterday I had a breakthrough insight.

I was, or better said, the body was trying to heave. But my stomach was empty, not even water in it.

It was dramatic. it was heroic. but most importantly, I could see through the spaces between what was happening that my body was strong. And it wanted to live.

That allowed me to change my mind. I had thought before that my body was ready to go and I was holding it back.

Between you and me I had never fully committed to life. After all I had overheard my parents talk about me, when I was an infant, saying that I wasn’t supposed to be alive.

It is true that I had a bacterial invasion on my body. It is true that it made me cough. It is true that I felt like I was drowning. It is also true that the Bit Bundle could have solved the whole issue… but the coughing was so intense, I gave up on it.

It is true that every breath feels like the last one. And hurts. Mightily.

But counterpoint to that: the body wants to live.

Finding your blind spot… so you can start self-correcting

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I have read at least one article about each possibly missing virtue saying that it is the root of all failure.

Some I may have even written myself.

But now that I am working closely and intensely with one student, and listen in to what others have to say, I must reconsider.

When in spite of some teaching, when in spite of a new way to look at one’s life, a person still comes up with the same garden variety ineffective behavior, than there must be something there that literally prevents them from from self-correcting. Continue reading “Finding your blind spot… so you can start self-correcting”

Let’s see what you missed and give it to you…

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The face, the faces, and the space in between…

When we talk about being present. When we talk about self-awareness. Awareness… We talk about more than just a bubble of reality with no relevance, no relationship to other things, spaces, or people.

No matter who I try to talk, they always end up more aware of one aspect, but not of the whole. The ‘in relation’ is missing, and it doesn’t seem to be missing for them, while in essence that is the most important aspect of living.

We live in relationship to everything… and the secret of humanity’ existence, is that for thousands of years this wasn’t an issue, it was how things were seen, rightly. Continue reading “Let’s see what you missed and give it to you…”

If you, they don’t get it. A movie demonstrating paradigms

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I have been talking, talking, and I don’t think I am being gotten.

I make people raise their hands on calls when they got what I said, and I can feel that they are lying, some of them, when they raise their hands.

Why? Because getting something is not the same as memorizing it.

So here is am, 720 articles and 50 weeks worth of webinars later. And as usual, I am playing freecell. Suddenly images from a movie I saw a few months ago start coming up in my mind. Bubbling up.

The movie is “Almost famous” and all the scenes star the actress of Fargo fame: Frances McDormand.

She is one of my favorite actresses. Why? Because her capacity to not give a hoot at how ridiculous she looks or sounds is so endearing, so empowering to me, I get courage and power for myself to look ridiculous and not care.

In this movie she goes beyond. And this is what this article is about.

I am not going to tell you the movie: I want you to watch it. But I’ll tell one piece: through her character, exasperating as it is, I have a clearer picture, suddenly, or where the people that are not getting it are.

Some of those people are my students. One of them has been with me since 2007, another one since mid-last year.
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Let’s build a high vibration person. Where shall we start?

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Let’s build a high vibration person. let’s build a skill, let’s build some skills

I am starting a new series that also shows a new direction I am taking my teaching/coaching practice.

The new direction is skill-building.

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