December 10, 2015… the saddest day in my life.
I see, finally, what is happening.
I see that the time for my work hasn’t come.
I see that what is important to you is to integrate into society, into your family, into your relationship, make money the way you are supposed to… no rocking the boat.
I see that your main problem, coming here, was that you didn’t quite fit in.
I don’t know why I didn’t get it earlier. I don’t know why I didn’t think that you just want to get rid of what was unhappy about you, so you can be part of this big stinky cesspool called humanity.
No calling of the spirit… none of that. Flying? who am I kidding.
But, you see, this is why humanity hasn’t evolved… because people, your ancestors, set their eyes at a nice life, nice family, enough money to live on.
Nothing more, nothing higher.
And the people who had energy, maybe even vision, only had vision to fight against something for something, but not for what’s possible for a human.
And the goddamn gurus, instead of firing you up, soothe you, by saying you are already perfect… yeah, a perfect lower specimen… unchanged for the past 50 thousand years.
Your potential clearly indicated in your DNA, every person’s DNA… unused, unexplored.
No wonder all societies and all religions tell you to be for other people, family, and other things.
That is the surest way to take the wind out of your sail, take away your fighting spirit… hell yeah… that is what’s happening.
I am heartbroken.
