The Hamster Wheel of You Are Never Good Enough. Had Enough?

hamster wheel of wanting unconditional loveUnconditional Love, Hamster Wheel, You Are Never Good Enough. Had Enough?

The gurus talk about unconditional love. I correct myself: they preach about unconditional love.

They pretend. Pius speak.

A few years ago I was invited to a gathering that devotees of a guru gave to celebrate whatever they were celebrating. Can’t remember what it was…

I went because I was curious. I am not a guru follower. Have never been.

The guru gave some words about unconditional love, then there was singing. They sang, a Hebrew prayer, that says that there is only one god. At some point I stood up and went to get something to drink. I felt something hitting my back, so I looked back and locked eyes with the guru who sent hatred through her eyes. Wow, if she could kill me, she would.

Unconditional love is not possible for a human being, guru or not guru. Unconditional love is not supportive of survival, and human being’s number one goal is to survive. Only the Creator can love unconditionally.

Also, craving unconditional love from another human is a horrible mistake. The main reasons we are so crazy. We are trying to earn love, appreciation. We are trying to mold ourselves so people love us.

This is the hamster wheel of having to, needing to, wanting to and should.

Once you get that only the Creator can love unconditionally, and it does, you simply get off the hamster wheel and start to become real. Start to look what would make YOU feel good. What would allow you to grow, for growth sake, not because it earns you something.

All my life I wanted to earn my keep, earn the right to be alive.

As a direct result my life was a complete roller coaster. It was full of utter failure. It was a mess full of hopelessness.

Only after I found out that the Creator loves me unconditionally, regardless of how I look, how I behave, how much I weigh, how I smell, how moral, how righteous, how selfish, how successful I am.

I can even curse the Creator, and the Creator won’t bet an eye. wow.

Then I downloaded the capacity to live that way.

I went through a week and a half of no ambition, just being. Being happy, content, doing nothing. Not a thing. I didn’t have to. I didn’t need to. And I didn’t want to. I was happy.

After the week and a half I invented stuff to do, for the challenge of it. I like challenge. It makes life more interesting. After all just being happy is actually boring. lol.

Without that first download/activation I would have never gotten where I am now: where I could consider myself potentially instrumental to the activation of the planet.

Without that first activation of Unconditional Love I would still try to impress some humans, prove that I am OK, etc.

Thank God I got off the hamster wheel.

The activator hasn’t changed. It works exactly like it worked then.

Get off the self-hate hamster wheel

Author: Sophie Benshitta Maven

True empath, award winning architect, magazine publisher, transformational and spiritual coach and teacher, self declared Avatar